september 30

I have a fear.
These days more and more I am needed and I felt overwhelmed.
How am I going to feel if someday and that day will come for sure people need me less.
Do I feel that I am worthless?
I want to remain happy regardless how other people think of me.

I talked about Anno Moyoko when I had a chat with my friend over the phone last night just before I felt asleep.
Reading her writing is good for my mind.
When you look at a grasshopper and you think that you can easily draw a picture of it, but once you start, you will realize that your picture looks by no means like a grasshopper, it might look like a cigar. Then you keep drawing and drawing, and you will get better because you start to see what you didn't see before and the action of drawing makes it happen.

I blowsed Mogi's book at bookstore on the way back home from work, and he also writes about the balance between input and output.
In today's society, there tend to be more input than output.
I totally agree and what I like the most about my job is that it has two aspects: input and output.
I have to read as much as I can to expose my self to more words and expression, but using it will then make those expression take root in my mind and once I use it, now it's MY word or expression.

I listened to the radio program this morning, two programs actually, germany and french radio courses.